Throwing the Years down the Drain

i'm not used to this feeling of coldness toward someone... it has been a long time since i felt it, and now it seems strange. it is seemingly rejected by my logical system, but my emotional drive processes it.......

there are many kinds of people who walk in and out of your life. many would be acquaintances, some would be seasonal friends and long time colleagues, and a few would be friends forever! a few of these you have given a part of yourself to. these are those whom you thought knows you, and you thought you know, but trivial circumstances will reveal otherwise which can result to strained relationships of what used to be (or seemingly) a deeply-rooted friendship. and when that happens, boom! someone gets hurt. it could be you, it could be the other person! or both.

when things are not sorted out properly, all the years, the memories, the relationship is thrown down the drain... and this really really hurts even the iciest of hearts!

but what is more hurting is the insignificance of the circumstances that led to it! even if you have the best of intentions to someone, and have expressed it openly, it can still be jaded by malice and devils whisperings. you then find it so difficult to accept the fact that a simple miscommunication, prejudice or unconfirmed suspicion will blot out all of these seemingly priceless treasures! these are the situations why the phrase "give him the benefit of the doubt" was invented, and has been proven very useful for many years. and when not exercised on you, "you are guilty unless proven innocent". but still many times, you are not given the opportunity to prove your innocence wherein, you have been judged without due process... this is the killer-pain! if you are as sentimental as i am when it comes to friends, this will spell a really bad day... or days! and finally, coldness... until healing comes with time, forgiveness, much prayers, and love...


maybe still... these situations are needed to separate the weeds from the real plants...

i remember reading thru the Old Testament the ingratitude of the Israelites to God despite His open display of love, care and provisions to them... i even don't need to go that far, coz many times i've been guilty of questioning God's love for me for many unpleasant circumstances, when He has already given the ultimate expression of it at the cross of calvary-- that is sacrificing His own beloved Son for my salvation! how short-sighted i can be!

having known the woes of a misjudged person, the next time the temptation creeps into my mind to doubt a friend, or more importantly my God, i'd have to think a million times. my stubbornness and selfishness might unnecessarily hurt a friend, or invite cold shoulders, or worse, destroy a wonderful relationship...