Take the Plunge!

would you rather know the reality about something, even if the odds are pointing opposite to what you want? Or just enjoy the slightest ray of hope and dwell on the bliss of the mystery of the unknown?

there are people who would rather not go to the doctor for the fear of knowing the real score of their health, until certain symptoms already appear and make the trip to the doctor inevitable; rather than dealing with the present while it is still manageable…

there are people who would rather all-together close themselves down for new friendships or new beginnings, because they were burned and betrayed a number of times; rather than learn from it and enjoy the possibilities of picking new gems again on life’s road…

there are people who would rather wait for divine intervention for their decisions, for the debilitating fear of making the wrong moves, rather than acting on it when God has fully equipped them to deal with the situation…

and then there are people who would rather keep mum about how they strongly feel for someone, hindered more by the fear of rejection and the uncertainties; rather than expressing one’s emotion to that special someone and dealing with the reality once and for all…

in many points in my life, i am like those people… but this time, with God’s guidance and strength, i took the plunge! after much prayers and deliberations with Him, i know it is worth it, so i took the risk… and i took the risk of losing my hopes and dreams, at the expense of knowing the reality…

we always fail to realize that knowing the reality, whether it is for us or against us, is actually more liberating in the process. we fail to see this because we let ourselves remain in the denial stage for so long. it is ok to let go of yourself in the depths of sorrow for failed dreams and failed expectations. it is natural. but it is also God’s will for us to be resilient.

now, i am free from the bondage of fear. i do not have to keep pinning my hopes on something in the air. i do not have to walk aimlessly. i do not have to deceive myself. i do not have to lose my energy on useless sleepless nights. i do not have to waste my time with endless exhausting mind game of ‘what ifs’.

but rather, I can now divert my remaining sanity on accepting the real present, keeping myself whole in the process and moving on forward in the real direction... while it is not yet too late.

at least now i know where i stand. i now know where i am. and it gives me a better perspective of where i should be going. and with God’s help abounding and freely accessible, i am now plotting on the ‘hows’ of getting there… baby steps at a time…